About

Hi, I’m Angela and I am uncomfortable writing about me essays. It’s a huge commitment and I’m just not sure how I might feel about it in the future. I’ve never wanted to define myself because it’s so incredibly limiting. I definitely have some constants and some variables. That being said, I’m starting this blog to keep track of myself.

Sometimes everything I thought I was is a distant hazy memory. Sometimes I can’t wait to be the person I want to be. My goal here is to reveal myself to myself because sometimes I’m so busy just surviving that I forget to live. Sometimes I neglect the the things that feed my soul and get lost chasing the wrong things. But I digress…

Faith

I will start with my faith as my first constant. I am a child of God. I am not a saint. I believe the things I have seen in existence can not be an accident or chance. I was saved when I was young but how old exactly I do not recall. It was at youth group. I was a socially awkward child and I never really felt like I belonged. I felt the love of God. I was sure that as hard as navigating the world was for me, God gave me life with intention and purpose. Sometimes I doubt. He’s not done with me yet. I have such a busy mind that it can be hard to hear His voice.

For we are God’s handiwork,

created in Christ Jesus to do good works,

which God prepared in advance for us to do.

~Ephesians 2:10

Hope

I was an optimistic idealist in my younger days. I think my idealistic ways gave me an anxiety problem and turned me into a pessimist. Plans don’t always go as planned and in my case I have had such bad experiences with plans that I have a real phobia of making them. I am an over thinker. I have amazing executive dysfunction. I’m unorganized and I wouldn’t doubt if I have ADHD. I am confident that I am Autistic. Some might say that I’m a “Hot Mess” and I would be ok with that because they’re not wrong. I am broken. I have baggage. I have trust issues. I also have hope. Without my faith I wouldn’t.

But he said to me,

“My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”

That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties.

For when I am weak, then I am strong.

2 Corinthians 9-10